Lonliness

… by definition is sadness because one has no friends or company; being without companions. The quality of being unfrequented and remote, or isolated, when in reference to a place.

I have friends and some sort of company almost all the time.  So does that leave me to be an isolated place?  Seems reasonable.  People are aound me, but they do not exactly come to me to visit.  I can see how I could be descibed as an isolated island.

I was born alone, I will die alone and despite the fact that there is pretty well almost always someone with me I am very much alone.

Now, of course you cannot help but to wonder if everyone feels this way.  Surely there are others.  Even when you are as close as you can be to someone you still have your very own thoughts.

I am an isolated island.

I have tried often to elude to the belief that I will always be alone, especially since that is the way that I always feel.

I was born an only child.  Oddly enough I am a third generation only child.  So maybe it is just an only child thing?  I have been okay with doing things by myself for a very long time now.  So maybe lonliness is just simply a part of who I am.

I am an island.

Maybe lonliness is not the word I am looking for, but is seemingly the easiest to describe how I feel. I wonder if there are any synonyms that would be better suited to describe this lonliness I feel…  Melancholy, forlorn, separation, alienation, desolate, detached, solitary…  All of those seem reasonable as well.

I found one website that currently actually lists 143 synonyms for lonliness. (https://www.powerthesaurus.org/loneliness/synonyms) That is a lot of synonyms for lonliness.  There were only 59 listed as antonyms.

I think that says a lot by itsef.  There are almost three times as many words relatable to lonliness as there are to the opposite of that.  So, while I may feel like an isolated island almost all the time…  I think it is safe to say that I am floating in a sea filled with several other lonely islands.

We are not alone, we just think we are.

 

 

If you or someone you know if feeling lonely, suicidal or otherwise, never be afraid to reach out to someone you know, or if you would like a bit anonymity, there are several phone numbers to call or text, even online chat.  Never underestimate how many people in this world really are available when you feel all alone.

Suicide Prevention Hotline *  1-800-273-8255

Crisis Text Line *  741741

Txt4Life *  61222

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention *  https://afsp.org/find-support/

The Trevor Project (geared toward the LGBT community) * 1-866-488-7386

 

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